Hi, I'm Alex

From the beginning, I knew what I wanted. But when the world told me it wasn’t possible and so, I believed it and settled for the next best thing. I chased degrees, careers, houses, relationships - the “right” milestones. On the surface, my life looked complete. 

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Idilic. 

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I was envied, even.

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But on the inside, I was numb, anxious and drowning (though I had no idea that wasn’t normal).

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A panic attack cracked me open and forced me to face a truth I’d been avoiding: I had been living on autopilot, betraying my own passion and silencing the faint inner knowing that had been with me since childhood. 

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But the panic attack that ripped me open wasn’t the collapse itself, it was the consequence of finally choosing not to ignore myself. When I stopped gaslighting my own knowing - about myself, about the world, about others - the scaffolding of my old life burned down as a result.

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Here’s the paradox: I ignored my real passion out of fear of disappointment - convinced I could never have it - and in doing so, I betrayed myself. That betrayal created even more pain.

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​​​What followed wasn’t a graceful “awakening.” It was a system crash. And then, slowly, a remembering.

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I started writing, recording and piecing together what I had buried. I began to notice the invisible definitions running my life: what love “should” look like, what success “must” be, why it felt selfish to choose myself. These weren’t just my struggles; they were universal patterns we all inherit but rarely question.

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That’s how The Basic Bitch Podcast was born, my living library of remembering. It isn’t about healing in the abstract. It’s about the trillion ways I betrayed myself and the ongoing, messy, funny, painful, empowering process of clawing my way back. Healing is the mechanism. Remembering who I am is the story.

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But the podcast is only one expression. My blog digs deeper into the everyday patterns we dismiss as “normal.” My upcoming drama series Starseed translates these truths into fictional narrative form. It came to me whole in movie-like dream. It carries a soul of its own, but at its heart, it translates the same truths into fiction: what happens when we forget who we are and what becomes possible when we remember.

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And with New Hollywood Productions, I’m building a home for creators who need to tell stories that actually change the way we see ourselves and each other.

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Through all of this, my mission is clear: to show that we’re not lost. We are the result of generations of programming teaching us to ignore our own being. But we are greater than that, and we all have the power to remember.

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If you’ve ever felt “fine” but secretly numb,

 

if you’ve built the life you thought you wanted but still feel something missing,

 

if you think you were made for more,

 

that’s not proof you’re delusional.

 

It’s proof you’re ready to remember.

 

Welcome to my library of remembering.

 

Stick around, maybe it will help you find yours.